I knew my addiction had jumped onto my plate when I started looking for the «sweetest thing» in the house.
First of all, you have to know: I have NEVER had a sweet tooth. Never. At least not until this time in my life…
Growing up, I preferred potato chips, pretzels, pizza and fries to candy, ice cream and soda.
As an adult, I haven’t changed.
Except, for this short period of time. A few months of my life when, after a traumatic event, I lost my bearings and addiction took advantage of it.
I have a long and winding journey of addiction. It started very young with cigarettes, then coffee, [then other things], then work, and then, finally, food.
Irony of all ironies, you will understand… From the very beginning of my adult life, I have always been passionate about healthy eating.
I knew very well that what my body «craved» was not a physiological need. Nor was it a passing craving: you should have seen the amount of sugar I was consuming!
Well, for some, I imagine, my consumption would not have raised eyebrows, but for me who had never liked sugar… Phew!
And then, not only refined sugar. No, flour products too. Pasta, pizza, potatoes & fries… There was never enough!
And that was another clue: the feeling of being stuffed, of having eaten too much, of having a bloated stomach, I never liked it. I always prefer to finish the meal feeling light and energized, not heavy and sleepy.
But during that time, no: I did not feel satiated at all. It’s like my stomach had no end…
And, as you can imagine, I gained weight. And very fast too!
I found myself at my highest weight ever, in just a few months.
My body, my back, my knees, my hips, everything hurt. Every movement was painful.
Bending over to put on my shoes? Phew! Not an easy task with the apron of belly fat I had. Just above my caesarean scar, the fat apron was hanging disgracefully… Gross!
And, supreme insult, I developed plantar fasciitis [an extremely painful irritation of the ligaments between the toes and the heel]. I could only stand for a few minutes at a time. And very uncomfortably at that…
I was in rough shape…
Not that I needed that kind of painful experiential proof, but I now firmly believe that food addiction is real.
I experienced it in my head…
I saw the consequences in my body…
I have experienced the repercussions of this in my life…
And I’ve seen many other people struggle with cravings and non-physiological hunger, and eat unimaginable and unhealthy amounts of food, to the detriment of their health.
But food addiction remains controversial, both in the media and in the scientific community.
It leaves me a little confused, to be honest.
Puzzled, but not entirely surprised. Not at all surprised, actually.
You would think that my personal experience with food addiction would sadden me at the incomprehensible attitude of many otherwise intelligent and surely well-meaning scientists who still argue that there is doubt about the reality of food addiction.
But no. I don’t get irritated by this. Why not?
It’s hard for someone who hasn’t been through it to understand exactly what it’s like to be at the mercy of any addiction.
We have long questioned the reality of alcoholism.
We have long questioned the reality of burnout, often the inevitable consequence of an addiction to work.
We will question the reality of food addiction for some time to come. Until we no longer question it.
For those of you who have battled totally irresistible recurring cravings or frequent truly uncontrollable hunger, you know, as I do, that food addiction is very much a reality.
You don’t need confirmation from other people, nor from the scientific community to have proof that what you have been through, or may still be going through, is not a lack of self-control or willpower or self-discipline…
People and science will eventually prove it to themselves.
In the meantime…
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